Monday, September 19, 2016

Day 1: About Me

     Okay so today I have decided to actually tell a little bit about myself through this blog. I have a love/hate relationship with the internet and technology. It's great that people are able to post or say everything that they may never have the guts to say in person (especially for me--more later), but I have tried very hard to not do that very thing--to not abuse the power of technology. It has been extremely difficult because I am definitely not the "confrontational" type of person. I find it much easier to express myself through my phone or writing or drawing (which writing and drawing are two of my hobbies), so I try not to tell people important things about myself this way, but since this is kind of the nature of the assignment, here we go:
     One of the biggest things about me that most people don't know is that I have social anxiety. It's not just that I am not talkative--because believe me, I could talk your ear off--it's just that I have a hard time being around people and an even harder time making conversation, although it's more than that. I have recently found it's very hard to explain my anxiety but I will really try to the best of my ability.

I will just pull from another website to describe how I feel most of the time:

     "Anxiety is a feeling of uneasiness, apprehension, and/or dread about a real or imagined future event. It is tied to a sense that these unpleasant events are at least partially unpredictable and uncontrollable, and therefore accompanied by an uncomfortable level of uncertainty."

     "Social anxiety is a feeling of uneasiness, dread, or apprehension about social interaction and presentation. Frequently, the primary concern fueling social anxiety is a concern that one will be (or is being) judged negatively by other people, regardless of whether this is actually the case. The experience of occasional, mild social anxiety is quite common, as is the experience of anxiety in general. Social anxiety can range from a relatively benign, infrequent level of severity to being a major hindrance in everyday life."

So yeah--that's about me in a nutshell--or rather why I can seem so quiet and/or shy.

That's all for now.